Monday, July 27, 2015

PUPO! (Pregnant until proven otherwise)

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We are PUPO - pregnant until proven otherwise! ^^^ Hello there little baby!! Today this little friend came to stay in my uterus! Say some prayers that he/she is snuggling in tight!!
The expansion grade scale ranges from 1 (least expanded) to 6 (completely hatched).
Grade 1: the fluid-filled cavity takes up less than half the space of the embryo.
Grade 2: the fluid-filled cavity takes up more than half the space of the embryo.
Grade 3: the blastocyst cavity has expanded into the entire volume of the embryo, pressing the trophectoderm cells up tightly against the inside of the zona.
Grade 4: Expanded blastocyst, where the blastocyst has increased beyond the original volume of the embryo and caused the zona pellucida “shell” to become super thin.
Grade 5: Embryo has breached the zona and is hatching out of its shell
Grade 6: Embryo is completely hatched.
So the embryo is given a number grade (1-6), followed by a letter grade for the inner cell mass and then the trophectoderm (A,B or C).
For the inner cell mass:
A: Many cells, tightly packed
B: several cells, loosely packed
C:  very few cells
The trophectoderm grading goes like this:
A: many cells, forming a cohesive layer
B: Few cells, forming a loose layer
C: Very few large cells.
- See more at: http://fertilitylabinsider.com/2011/12/understanding-the-gardner-blastocyst-grading-scale/#sthash.xHvBQGol.dpuf
What you're seeing here is 1. the early beginnings of a baby and 2. More technically - an expanded blastocyst grade BA. Here's a little bit about that that means!



Expanded blastocyst - The fluid filled cavity volume is larger than that of the early embryo and the zona pellucida (outer shell) is thinning.

The ICM grading is as follows:
A ----- Tightly packed, many cells;
B ----- Loosely grouped, several cells;
C ----- Very few cells.

The trophectoderm (the inner shell) grading is as follows:
A ------ Many cells forming a tightly knit epithelium (layer of cells that make up the outer surface of your body);
B ------ Few cells;
C ------ Very few cells forming a loose epithelium.

So what? Welllll that means, basically, that it is in good shape, and a better quality than any of the embryos we have ever had!
We also have one to freeze for sure and maybe 3 more!! holy wow! That has never happened!! Frozen embryos means that if this doesn't take, or we want baby #3, then we don't have to do all the shots and procedures right away.

A little about the procedure - warning if you don't like mild gynecological talk don't read this, though it is a blog about making a baby after all!
I had to arrive an hour early to start drinking water and get checked in. You must have a super full bladder in order to do the procedure, it helps push your uterus down so its more accessible. (Here's the warning part) They brought me into the room to get set up, checked my arm band 2374634 times so I actually had my own embryo implanted then they get you in the stirrups. Now remember I have a TAC (transabdominal cerclage) this is tied at the top of my cervix, because of this my cervix doesn't "rise and fall" like most women. It just stays way way up high, which is fine b/c now it holds in a baby so I'll take that "pitfall".
My RE had to use like 4 different kinds speculums (this sounds like a Harry Potter word) and an extra long catheter to finally reach my cervix. OUCH! He then threaded the catheter through my cervix and into my uterus. The nurse yells "patient ready", embryologist yells "embryo ready" we see it on the screen above our heads and then she runs into the room with another catheter. The embryologist's bonnet was fabric with eggs and sperm on it, amazing. We watch the little white blip that is the embryo float into my uterus.
They took everything out and I went to lay back and settle in for my 15 minutes of laying flat when the nurse told me they don't do that anymore! My how things have changed, they also said I have no restrictions and can pick up Colin any time I want. I will have a blood test later to determine if the embryo "took" (if I am pregnant or not).
Then Bill and I went out for a nice lunch together! (Thanks Mom for watching Colin!)

At this point in the process Bill and I have decided that the blog should go dark for a while. Until we are ready to announce a pregnancy or until we begin another IVF cycle (both will take a while) Until then send some prayers our way!!


Grade 1: the fluid-filled cavity takes up less than half the space of the embryo.
Grade 2: the fluid-filled cavity takes up more than half the space of the embryo.
Grade 3: the blastocyst cavity has expanded into the entire volume of the embryo, pressing the trophectoderm cells up tightly against the inside of the zona.
Grade 4: Expanded blastocyst, where the blastocyst has increased beyond the original volume of the embryo and caused the zona pellucida “shell” to become super thin.
Grade 5: Embryo has breached the zona and is hatching out of its shell
Grade 6: Embryo is completely hatched.
So the embryo is given a number grade (1-6), followed by a letter grade for the inner cell mass and then the trophectoderm (A,B or C).
For the inner cell mass:
A: Many cells, tightly packed
B: several cells, loosely packed
C:  very few cells
The trophectoderm grading goes like this:
A: many cells, forming a cohesive layer
B: Few cells, forming a loose layer
C: Very few large cells.
- See more at: http://fertilitylabinsider.com/2011/12/understanding-the-gardner-blastocyst-grading-scale/#sthash.xHvBQGol.dpuf
Grade 4: Expanded blastocyst, where the blastocyst has increased beyond the original volume of the embryo and caused the zona pellucida “shell” to become super thin.
Grade 5: Embryo has breached the zona and is hatching out of its shell
Grade 6: Embryo is completely hatched.
So the embryo is given a number grade (1-6), followed by a letter grade for the inner cell mass and then the trophectoderm (A,B or C).
For the inner cell mass:
A: Many cells, tightly packed
B: several cells, loosely packed
C:  very few cells
The trophectoderm grading goes like this:
A: many cells, forming a cohesive layer
B: Few cells, forming a loose layer
C: Very few large cells.
- See more at: http://fertilitylabinsider.com/2011/12/understanding-the-gardner-blastocyst-grading-scale/#sthash.t16rla1O.dpuf
Grade 4: Expanded blastocyst, where the blastocyst has increased beyond the original volume of the embryo and caused the zona pellucida “shell” to become super thin.
Grade 5: Embryo has breached the zona and is hatching out of its shell
Grade 6: Embryo is completely hatched.
So the embryo is given a number grade (1-6), followed by a letter grade for the inner cell mass and then the trophectoderm (A,B or C).
For the inner cell mass:
A: Many cells, tightly packed
B: several cells, loosely packed
C:  very few cells
The trophectoderm grading goes like this:
A: many cells, forming a cohesive layer
B: Few cells, forming a loose layer
C: Very few large cells.
- See more at: http://fertilitylabinsider.com/2011/12/understanding-the-gardner-blastocyst-grading-scale/#sthash.t16rla1O.dpuf

Sunday, July 26, 2015

A transfer you say?

So this cycle has been different than any of my previous cycles. On saturday morning, 3 days after my egg retrieval I got the call that they were canceling my transfer and pushing us out to a day 5!
What this means - the longer the embryos can continue growing in the lab, the better chance we have at picking the strongest one. 5 days is the max amount of "lab time".
This is what embryos look like as they grow. Colin was an 8 cell, and Josh & Zoe were 7 and 9 cells.

The embryologist called me today to tell me about my transfer for tomorrow. I asked her about how many we had and their grades. We still have 7 (SEVEN!!!) 
This is how we (we meaning I have no part in this at all...) grade embryos
So the top ABC - this tells about the symmetry of the cells
The next row says 1234, in my practice they use GFP- good fair poor. This talks about the fragmentation or space and "extra" stuff in the embryo.
And of course the higher the cell count, the better.
Got it? Easy Peasy right?? HA
Anyways, lets keep this in mind - Josh and Zoe were 7BF and 9BF, Colin was an 8BF(one of the 8BFs in this cycle didnt make it).
We currently have 2 10BGs (AHHH) and 5 8/9CFs. One of the BGs will be transferred tomorrow at 12:15!
Say a little prayer for us that transfer goes smoothly!!
Tomorrow I will show you our little "embie" and I will explain the transfer procedure. I feel I have bombarded you with enough info for one post!

Oh and because some people have been asking, we will being doing a SET (Single Embryo Transfer). The doctor is too worried for me to carry twins again (even tho the TAC can handle it) but really the end all be all is the fact that insurance will only approve the transfer of one embryo graded better than an 8bf in patients under 35. So unless I want to pay for IVF (which I don't) then one it is.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Fert report!

I always want to sing "creature report, creature report cre-ture re-port!" but with "fert"

ANNNNYwayyyys
Out of the 15 eggs they retrieved 14 of them were mature and 8 of them fertilized.
So to break that down even further, ICSI (intra cytoplasmic sperm injection) is done to fertilize our eggs. The embryologist took a single sperm and injected it into a single egg 8 of them managed to successfully fertilize and begin to grow.


On transfer day they will pick the embryo with the most cells and the best letter grade. If it's below an 8BF then they will allow us to transfer two. 

So we will watch and wait, the embryologist will call me tomorrow and tell me how many cells each egg is and we will probably transfer on Saturday.

end of super short post!

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Buck buck buckkkkk

Today was egg laying day!!!
Or retrieval if you want to be all technical

We left bright an early so we could beat the traffic! When we got there they of course took my vitals. My BP was so outrageous number like 146/96 or something (needless to say I was petrified). The nurse was amazing, as they usually are, and she promised we would take our time and do the IV right.
She wrapped my arms in warm blankets and then took about 15 minutes to feel all possible places to put the IV. I appreciate her taking the time and not just jumping on what she "thought" might work. She decided to try for my hand but promised to not force the plastic cath if it wouldn't go. She got it!!! She got it on the first try and the least painful IV I have ever had!

Yes, I took a picture! Its a big deal!!! We waited a little while until the person ahead of my was out of the OR. It was finally my turn, I walked in and sat on the OR table, scooted down and they strapped my legs in the stirrups. They strapped my arms in and started to administer the meds to make me go to sleep.

I came into the recovery room with O2 still on, first time for that. Bill was there, I didnt talk to him so I didn't say silly things. First thing I did say when I finally felt more coherent : "How many did we get?"
My good nurse laughed at me and said we got (drumrollllll)

15 eggs!!! WOOOO
Tomorrow they will call and give me the "fert report" and then I will have a transfer friday, saturday, or monday (it will probably be saturday) Until then, we wait!

Thanks for all the prayers!!

Monday, July 20, 2015

Pulling the trigger



Today was another day of monitoring. So here we see my two ovaries almost touching each other (they aren't really suppose to do that in real life) and in the middle, the shadowy ball is my uterus. Fun huh? The ultrasound tech said she wasn't sure what they were going to do with me since I had a batch of follies in the 18ish mm range and then a bunch in the 15-16mm range (we need 19-22mm). I finally got the call today at 4pm, as I was beginning to freak out about being forgotten about...
Turns out they wanted me to trigger!!! WOOOOO!!! So what a trigger shot does, is it tells the body to release the eggs, basically I take HCG to make me ovulate. I HAD to take it at 8:30 on the dot, 36 hours later (wednesday 8:30am) I need to be in the OR to have my retrieval  


Here is my trigger shot!

I have to draw up 1cc of diluent and mix it with the powdered HCG with that giantass needle you see there. Then I get to unscrew said godzilla needle and put on the little subq one. Way easier! However this time the needle caps wouldn't come off and I was afraid of yanking them and stabbing my finger so I ended up bending one of the little subq needles, good thing they send 2!

So if you happen to take a moment on wednesday morning, just send a little prayer my way for an easy surgery. Also that they can get the IV set on the first shot, without blowing out multiple veins and me having a crying hysterical moment when they cant do it but keep trying. Honestly, getting an IV is the worst part of this whole entire process. Needles in my belly all day erry day is no big deal its blood work and stupid IVs that are the big problem.

Until next time!



Saturday, July 18, 2015

Do you want to see my follies??

If you sang that title to the tune of "Do you want to build a snowman", then you win.

So here they are so far!





It appears that I have around 18 follies all in the 12-14mm range (goal is 19-22mm). We are trucking right along! I'm def starting to really feel the fact that my ovaries have literally 17x the amount of things in them on any normal month.

This med I am taking - Ganarelix
See that large yellow sicker on it? If you cant read it, it says "May cause headache". Yeah, as in perpetual headache that sleeping wont touch. Caffeine is a no go, and I am suppose to stay away from pain killers as much as I can.
The nurse said I might be ready for a trigger on Monday, which would make my retrieval on Wednesday morning. Monday morning I have more BW and US, that will tell me our next course of action.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

On the docket for tonight


Some Ganarelix and of course my Follistim! Both injected subcutaneously into my abdomen by yours truly! I'm starting to feel more like a pin cushion, and my poor belly is bruising up.


So lets back up a tad, on Tuesday I went in for bw and an u/s. As we can see to the left, while 2 is better than 3 pokes, its still one to many! I had 4ish small follicles all measuring about 9-10mm (we need to get to 19-20ish mm).













Bill and I went to the Museum of Science in Boston to see the Pixar exhibit, so that was fun. And of course the 1 minute I was in a tunnel is when the Dr called. BOO. So more bw today, but no u/s, only one hand poke today! I said 'lets just cut to the chase, stab my hand' so she did. We have to watch my LH hormone to be sure it doesn't make me "lay my eggs" too early. Because it was at a 5.4 today they decided to have me introduce the Ganarelix. This will allow the Follistim to do its job but hold back the LH (oooOOooo science-y).
I head back in Friday for an u/s and more bw. Hopefully I have MY u/s tech that I love, and I can snap a few pics of my large ovaries starting to fill up!

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

It's like Christmas, for infertiles

 This will be quite the picture heavy post! I like pictures! I'm sure you do too
Look what came today!!!!!

WOOOOOOO!!!! A BOX OF NEEDLES!!


So here are my meds, the boxes on the left are patches and suppositories, all the boxes on the right are injections :( womp. (And bananas, because they are the only thing Colin eats, every time)
First is follistim - this is the "fresh" med that had me in a panic the other day about prior approval. This med wil make my ovaries hyper stimulate, it will make me make lots and lots of eggs as opposed to a natural womans cycle which is usually one or two eggs. This is a vile that I insert into a "pen", draw up the meds and use a new needle cap every day.



This is Ganarelix, it's "nice" because the syringes are already filled!


This med makes sure that my body doesn't release LH. If that hormone is released then I will ovulate too soon, this holds off that hormone until we tell it to do its job.



















Menopur is another stimulation medication, however this med helps to make eggs a better quality and also make more of the follicles mature. you draw up the med using a "q cap" then switch the end of the syringe to a needle. This med is my least favorite. It burns going in and gives some resistance when injecting. blek.
(If youre following, thats 3 injections a night so far...)

This here is Novarel and Lupron - one of these will be my trigger shot, the shot I will use that makes my body release eggs at a certain time. This is all very timed out. I take it 36 hours before my retrieval, and I need to be in the OR ready to go exactly at that time, or we could lose all the eggs. Talk about stressfullness!

Last we have Crinone and Estadiol. This comes after the retrieval. progesterone and estrogen help the pregnancy to "stick" and keeps all my hormone levels in check.

Now wasn't that fun!?!

Its so weird to be excited to give yourself a shot. I just want to get a move on!

Thanks for reading! xoxo

Monday, July 6, 2015

Suppression check

This morning I went in for my suppression check. That consists of blood work and an internal ultrasound to determine that my hormones and egg production has been at a stand still due to the introduction of birth control.

So blood work, it needs to be drawn by 7:45am in order to be picked up by the courier. The lab opens at 7, so I figured I would get there around 7:10/7:15 to let all the people who have to get to work have a turn first. I arrived and 15 FIFTEEEEEEN people were ahead of me. So I was a tad nervous about that, the phlebotomist said that he would make the courier wait for everyone to have their draw completed tho. So that was nice. What wasn't nice were the THREE tries it took to hit a vein. I might need to be "that" patient and request the phlebotomist that hits my difficult veins on the first time every time. I just feel like a jerk. But I cant do 3 tries every day ouch.





After that "shit show" I headed down to ultrasound to check on my little ovaries. We started internally, but that wasn't working, so we went abdominal. All the medical things today. sheesh.





The dr called and said we had the hormonal go ahead to stop the bcps and start stims on friday, the 10th.
Then I got a call after 5 today from the fertility pharmacy, they said that my insurance is requesting prior authorization for my gonal f (the stimulating hormone) I am suppose to start it on the 10th if I don't have Auth by the 9th I will have to pay OOP.... $1500 for 1 pen. I need at least 5.
I can buy one at a time and if I get authorization then I can be reimbursed. But I'm sorta freaking out about them approving it. We never had this hoop to jump through before...I suppose I'll be doing some harassing tomorrow!



And last but not least --- my kid at the beach! Just cuz he's cute.


Thursday, July 2, 2015

Popping in from vacation to saaaayyy

We just got the call...insurance approved our IVF!!!

I go in on monday for BW and US, then my stims (injections) will start on the 10th!

Our pharmacy order is going in today and will hopefully be delivered next week too. I cant believe this is all starting again. Its crazy. I'm sorta freaking out about the whole 2 kids thing. Colin is so so special, and not that this new baby wont be, but how will my feelings be?
I'm trying to keep in mind the love and bond I have with my siblings and how much I want that for Colin.
Anyways, this is a short update. More another day!

Happy 4th of July!!